Day 1

It's my first post so I'm not quite sure how to work this yet. It's also 11:50PM and I have school tomorrow. So, I would love to play around with these settings, but I really can't. 

On this blog, I want to talk about my life. My own little journal. I'm sure many can relate if you're around the same age as me. So welcome to our world! 

I'm freaking out about my future career. I feel as if I'm not good enough. I feel as if I don't have the right amount of skills in my back pocket for my career. I feel as if everyone knows everything so much better than me. I feel as if everyonehas their life worked out as opposed to me. I try to calm myself down by telling myself that everything will work out. As long as I'm not sitting around and not doing anything, things will move my way. 

My best friend is leaving for the summer to another country for an internship opportunity. I am so happy for her and I'm glad she is doing this. I'm just worried that we might drift apart. I'm worried that we won't be as close anymore. It hurts me to think this way. But she's the only best friend that I have. I don't have anyone as close as she is in my life. It would make me really sad to see her leave my life. I hope she feels the same way about me. 

I feel as if I should talk to her. That would make things so much better...communication. Why do we do that as humans? We bottle up our emotions because of some fear and hope the other person can unlock it within us. When you think about it, it doesn't logically make sense what we do. 

I have now set a new goal for myself. I want to be able to communicate openly with people about my feelings and have a conversation with them about it. I think that would definitely minimize my anxiety.

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